Welcome!

After some deliberation, and a long break from blogging I deleted my original blog. I felt a strong urge to start something new - because things are so different from when I began narrating my journey in 2005. The last blog was written during my quest of creating a life more in line with 'who I really am'. This involved a seemingly endless and unrelenting list of challenges, including (though not limited to) ending an eight year relationship, moving interstate, changing jobs, returning to study, endless self examination, and most importantly finding my heart again.

The last twelve months have been the busiest and most profoundly life changing I can remember. My life as I knew it, no longer exists. I am still obviously the same girl, just far wiser and more loving. I understand the distinction between knowledge and wisdom - that distinction is all tied up in finding the courage to experience. Experiencing life... as opposed to settling for reading, thinking and day dreaming about it. I now demonstrate self respect, and my everyday actions reflect my innermost intentions. These two golden rules have served me well! So has developing what can only be described as, well - gumption.

My experiences over the last five years - the depression, struggle with self and anger, no longer define who I am. They form part of the library of experiences that make me the woman who I am today. This library is unique, beautiful and proves I am indeed an enigma - as each one of us are! Only recently can I look back at those memories with a sense of ownership and love. They no longer fill me with any sense of regret or bitterness. Sometimes, I believe, pain can bring the biggest rewards and greatest gains. I remember one particularly difficult morning, writing in my journal that in the near future I would be grateful for the pain I was feeling. I wrote those words not believing in them, just trusting. Like so many other things I have written in hope, my wishes became my reality -and I am now profoundly grateful for the pain I experienced on every level of my being.

In the words of Kahlil Gibran (1883-1931), a most wonderful philosopher and poet:

“Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding.”

I hope you enjoy the new blog,

Much love,

E xox